tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71660805317072925162024-02-19T17:28:38.338-08:00SMURGLE, ALL YE WATTABUPSThe words of me. A writer. Among other things.Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.comBlogger64125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-88741334337221878972015-12-10T09:04:00.001-08:002015-12-10T09:04:29.000-08:00Clockwork of Sorrow & About The Bear<div style="color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px;">
I have two new stories out!!!!!! THE EXCITEMENT!!!!!</div>
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The first is "<a data-mce-href="http://podcastle.org/2015/11/19/podcastle-390-flash-fiction-extravaganza-bears/" href="http://podcastle.org/2015/11/19/podcastle-390-flash-fiction-extravaganza-bears/" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">About The Bear</a>," a flash fiction at Podcastle, who also published <a data-mce-href="http://podcastle.org/2015/08/04/podcastle-375-the-child-support-of-cromdor-the-condemned/" href="http://podcastle.org/2015/08/04/podcastle-375-the-child-support-of-cromdor-the-condemned/" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">The Child Support of Cromdor The Condemned</a>. Podcastle had an open call for stories about bears. Truthfully, they had a pun-tastic call for stories about bears. "Pawedcastle is seeking koality stories that will not be polarizing."</div>
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I love that sort of stuff.</div>
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I wrote the story in about an hour. It was a simple matter of mating a true story, about a friend who wrestled a bear (not kidding) with a fantasy world I have been working in for several stories and a novel.</div>
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The reader absolutely slays it. And you get to hear four other fantastic bear-themed stories, plus my pun-tastic list of previous credits. I've been published at The Magazine of Furtasy & Science Furtion, Urson Scott Card's Intergrowlactic Medicine Show, etc...</div>
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Um. You get it. Bear pun.</div>
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Clockwork of Sorrow was written entirely for the great anthology <a data-mce-href="http://www.amazon.com/Ghost-Cogs-Scott-Gable/dp/1940372143/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1448903459&sr=1-1&keywords=ghost+in+the+cogs" href="http://www.amazon.com/Ghost-Cogs-Scott-Gable/dp/1940372143/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1448903459&sr=1-1&keywords=ghost+in+the+cogs" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">Ghost In The Cogs</a> from Broken Eye Books. This was a fun prompt: steampunk ghost stories. I was really happy to be part of Broken Eye, which puts out wonderfully creepy books with amazing covers. Look at that cover! Holy crap dudes!</div>
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This story ties into my novel The Great Faerie Strike, and takes place in the same world. The novel is still being shopped around, but you can get a glimmer of how the world works in this piece.</div>
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Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-67587449649245159542015-09-09T20:43:00.003-07:002015-09-09T20:43:55.742-07:00PPSSSST You're My Favorite<div style="border: 0px; color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">
“What’s your favorite of your stories?” is one of those dumb questions that authors get a lot. It feels a bit like a kid asking “Who do you love more, my brother or me?” (I do know someone who genuinely said, “You’re my favorite; don’t tell the others” to her daughter. NO PRESSURE THERE.)</div>
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Most of the time, writers don’t want to admit that they have a favorite. You want people to approach a story on their own terms, rather than thinking, “even the writer didn’t like that story like I did.” Also, why give an excuse to ignore your other works?</div>
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That said, screw it… <a href="http://podcastle.org/2015/08/04/podcastle-375-the-child-support-of-cromdor-the-condemned/" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">The Child Support of Cromdor The Condemned</a>is my favorite.</div>
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The story is a Conan pastiche/parody/deconstruction (you’ll laugh, you’ll quaff ale, you’ll go “hmm”) about a retired Conan type whose previously unknown son shows up and asks for a favor not even Cromdor The Condemned may be able to fulfill, though he will, with his trusty loincloth and sword, try.</div>
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When I first read Conan, at the age of 15, I was dimly aware that, along with James Bond films (I had just seen Goldeneye), he presented a specific model of manhood, one where being taciturn, confident and rough led to constant success in life and with women. Twenty years later, this story grew out of my reflections on who I was then, and who I am now. Despite reading the Conan stories, I am now a father, a writer, and <em style="border: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">not</em> a taciturn dude who quaffs ale and sends panties flying with a smoldering gaze.</div>
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I’ll unpack more of this in future blog posts, but FIRST I hope you’ll go give it a listen (<a href="https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/podcastle-podcastle-podcastle/id276266378?mt=2" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">iTunes link here</a>), as it’s only on audio right now, or you can leave a comment, <a href="https://twitter.com/Spencimus" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Tweet at me</a>, or FB at me, and I will email you a text version.</div>
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And I’ll just say these two things.</div>
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1) This story got me my first reeeelly real FAN MAIL. Squee! An excerpt:</div>
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<em style="border: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I’ve read it 3 times and listened to it twice now… Your story did something I’ve never seen a piece of fiction <span class="il" style="border: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">do</span> so well, and with a character like <span class="il" style="border: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Cromdor</span>/Conan especially. It showed me a man who is both shaped by contributes to a culture of misogyny, balancing the tragedy of it for <span class="il" style="border: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Cromdor </span>against the damning fact that his personal tragedy does not excuse or ameliorate the impact of his behavior on the people around him.</em></div>
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2) If you are a member of SFWA or Worldcon, and you’re nominating for Hugos or Nebulas next year, well… *humblebrag* *humblebrag* a few people have told me this is on their early nomination list. Keep it in mind.</div>
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It is my favorite. Just don’t tell the other stories.</div>
Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-58722860621958491922015-05-17T16:09:00.002-07:002015-05-17T16:10:14.968-07:00Lion Tamer & The Fires of Mercy Are Up<div style="border: 0px; color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">
Whussup, y’all!</div>
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Lion Tamer, my collaboration with Tina Connolly from her new book Seriously Wicked, is <a href="http://www.sfsignal.com/archives/2015/04/guest-post-exclusive-tina-connolly-spencer-ellsworth-debut-lion-tamer-original-song-accompany-seriously-wicked/" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">alive and kicking on SF Signal</a>. Go read about it. This was a fun project of realizing a song from Tina’s new book, in which a sweet boy, perhaps too sweet for rock n roll, is possessed by a thoroughly rockin demon.</div>
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<a href="http://www.beneath-ceaseless-skies.com/issues/issue-171/" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">The Fires of Mercy is also live at Beneath Ceaseless Skies,</a> in fiction and podcast form. This cool little story was drawn from a very long and complicated mythology that I’ve been working on for ages. One-and-a-half million words, four novel drafts, and here’s this 4k short story to show for it. A wee iceberg tip, peeking above the water.</div>
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(Actually, that’s not quite fair to my 2 million words–<a href="http://www.beneath-ceaseless-skies.com/stories/the-death-of-roach-by-spencer-ellsworth/" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">a previous BCS story</a> came from the same world.)</div>
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I wanted to root this story, a kind of founding myth for the world, in something very understandable–a desperate group, on the run, and someone caught between two loyalties. The aphorism “every act of war has at its heart an act of mercy” isn’t something I believe, but it I wanted to create the sort of philosophy that could drive an order of assassins and allow them to live with their deeds.</div>
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This story is the foundation for a much larger magic system, a world where jin are a kind of fuel for magic. I’m currently working on a four-story cycle that takes place a thousand years later, and then I’ll get back to the (sigh) novel.</div>
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By the way, if you're still reading this blog, I tend to spend more time with my WordPress site these days: <a href="http://spencerellsworth.com/">spencerellsworth.com</a></div>
Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-47566113655527765672015-01-28T14:35:00.001-08:002015-01-28T14:35:58.427-08:00As Years Go, This Was More of a Month<div style="color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px;">
Sometimes, you think you're just about done processing January 2014 when you realize the whole darn year's gone. That's what this last year was like.</div>
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As a child of the 80s, 2015 has always been THE FUTURE in big capital letters. Hoverboards and flying cars and all that, yes, but also an old Marty McFly with a broken hand and Flea getting him fired. <a data-mce-href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Km6bFBSVty4" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Km6bFBSVty4" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">By fax</a>. (That's scary, knowhumsayin? I might get fired by fax this year.)</div>
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This was a hell of a year. We bought our first house one week before the start of 2014. I spent the year ignoring various issues with the house, including mildew and a sump pump. I have now paid the price, for I have scrambled around under a house fixing a pump, and I have chopped out hideous rotting carpet. Much like <a data-mce-href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/144/6118/640/calvinandhobbes.jpg" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/144/6118/640/calvinandhobbes.jpg" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">Calvin</a>, I suspect I built character, and I loathe myself for it.</div>
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I started a new job this year. For years, I'd been teaching English full-time at Argosy University Online, a job that was flexible, but not really challenging, and not much in terms of long-term prospects. The world is teeming with online English teachers, and unexpected unemployment could be dangerous. When the local tribal college, where I was also teaching part-time, had an opening for E-Learning Coordinator, I went for it. It's been fun, and exhausting. I went from feeling bored to feeling a little too useful, as I run the online program, design and teach online classes, and coordinate our videoconferencing classes.</div>
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The new job seems to be good for the writing, and bad for it all at once. I wrote not one, not two, but (almost) three novels this year. Each one clocked in under 70,000 words; one barely topped 50,000. I decided to consider this an unintended personal victory.</div>
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(This is not the same as when eating fifteen cookies is an unintended personal victory.)</div>
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In high school, when I wrote a novel, it topped out at over 200,000 words. For years, my comfort level with my big robberclobbering fantasy tomes has been somewhere between 140,000 words and 200,000 words. For those who don't count the teeny little words, that's between 600 and 1000 pages. So writing short novels feels good! Just imagine, if I had actually sold a novel by now I might not have learned this skill. Yay?</div>
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Of course, the job has taken over a lot of the time I had for things like blogging, managing submissions, thinking... but <a data-mce-href="http://www.bleedingcool.com/?s=spencer+ellsworth" href="http://www.bleedingcool.com/?s=spencer+ellsworth" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">I did manage to put out quite a few interviews and articles on Bleeding Cool this year.</a> I'm quite proud of the one with G. Willow Wilson, if you can't decide where to start.</div>
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Just about every year I wonder whether I can make this the big "My Year," in which I hit some writing-career-defining milestone. I think I did more writing and submitting in 2014 than I have in a while. I got a story in F&SF, another in Every Day Fiction, and have one forthcoming in Beneath Ceaseless Skies.</div>
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Still, I don't think I've had "my year" yet. 2015, you are the Future. Are you also My Year? Tell me, but not by fax.</div>
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Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-28404714744664698652014-09-14T15:10:00.001-07:002014-09-14T15:10:06.313-07:00Missing My Own Ball<div style="border: 0px; color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">
Oh my gosh, well, color me silly. I totally missed that my story<a href="http://www.everydayfiction.com/talking-animals-by-spencer-german-ellsworth/" style="border: 0px; color: #24890d; font-family: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">“Talking Animals” went up on Every Day Fiction!</a></div>
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It’ll only take you a couple of minutes to read it. So go read it!</div>
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Now that you have read it.</div>
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This is one of my very favorite pieces I have ever written. It fell out almost completely perfect, and referenced a lot of my favorite books. I really enjoyed thinking about a twisted version of anthropomorphic animal stories, since those were always my favorite books as a child. I also enjoyed blurring the lines between fantasy and reality as I wrote about the ways the rats–are they real? are they not? you don’t know!–destroyed the other animals.</div>
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The final line was originally “and cheered for NIMH.” I love that line still, but after enough comments about the specificity of the reference, I decided it needed to be “the rats.”</div>
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<i>This post, and my bibliography and other fun stuff, can be viewed at spencerellsworth.com</i></div>
Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-28564284804678758642014-08-18T21:43:00.002-07:002014-08-18T21:43:04.161-07:00Wrap-UP<div style="color: #2b2b2b; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px; margin-bottom: 24px;">
This was meant to be a post for the end of the Clarion Write-a-Thon. Ha. BUT. I've been writing like crazy.</div>
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First, my soft underbelly: I post fanfiction related to James Roberts' <a data-mce-href="http://www.intergalacticmedicineshow.com/cgi-bin/mag.cgi?do=columns&vol=spencer_ellsworth&article=063" href="http://www.intergalacticmedicineshow.com/cgi-bin/mag.cgi?do=columns&vol=spencer_ellsworth&article=063" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">Transformers: More Than Meets The Eye comic series</a> (NO SHUT UP IT's ART OF THE HIGHEST CALIBER) at <a data-mce-href="http://transfans.co.uk/community/viewforum.php" href="http://transfans.co.uk/community/viewforum.php" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">Transfans.co.uk</a> under the name bumblemusprime. Get the comic series, then read my sticky fan tribute!</div>
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I swore off fanfic in 1994. See, after reading <em>Mossflower</em> to pieces, I wrote my own Redwall novel, and, with no Internet to guide me, sent it to Brian Jacques. He sent back a note saying "Your story is well written, but you need to think of your own ideas and characters!"</div>
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I vowed to heed him; sorry, Brian Jacques, but the MTMTE series is <em>that</em> good. Vow broken.</div>
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PS: Brian I not-so-humbly submit that my novel, at the age of fourteen, was fourteen badgers' worth better than <em>The Bellmaker.</em> You phoned it in on that one.</div>
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I reached my Write-a-Thon goal earlier this week. I completed a short novel at 51,000 words, which is pretty good for me, considering my typical novel runs around 150,000 words. Life goal achieved: be brief!</div>
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I cooked on this novel. On high heat. Broil, lots of salt. Extended food metaphor here.</div>
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When I cook my prose quickly, I don't cut and rewrite. A crucial character needs a whole new plot and arc, but I just wanted to get through to the end and so I limped him along as a passive whiny brat.</div>
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I learn from writing badly, in theory. Well, I learn but it's hard to say what at this point... which also comes from writing quickly, because one ends in a stunned daze, a few pounds overweight, sucking chocolate and coffee like a babe at the teat. Usually I can see the cracks and the poor judgment and the curdled milk in the cake at the end of a hot, hard session (METAPHORICAL, you pervs)(the cake is a lie, too).</div>
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I'm not sure that I improve by writing fast. I produce, though! Afterward I'm a bit too dazed to really find the good heart of a piece. Herein lies a great critique of NaNoWriMo: <a data-mce-href="http://www.salon.com/2010/11/02/nanowrimo/" href="http://www.salon.com/2010/11/02/nanowrimo/" style="color: #24890d; text-decoration: none;">that in its heart, each NaNo is a bucket of diarrhea.</a> Whaddya think, dear readers who are writers? When you charge ahead, heedlessly vomiting words, saving any self-analysis for revision, do you learn? Or do you, yes you, right there in the corner, excise and revise?</div>
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Because the world doesn’t deserve any more sentences as bad as that one. Among other things. I’ve got a project I’d really like to finish. I needta update my Clarion West Write-A-Thon goals to reflect completion of this project, a space opera, rather than the historical novel I was working on, which I’m setting aside to percolate for a bit.</div>
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Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-43891594326531202882014-04-22T16:38:00.002-07:002014-04-22T16:38:59.637-07:00What It Means To Give A Platform to Hate SpeechSo, I'm a writer, yes, (with a story <a href="http://www.ccfinlay.com/blog/julyaug-fsf-contents-announ.html">forthcoming in F&SF</a>!) and I've finally achieved some measure of "success," as we gauge such things. I publish short stories. Some of them are reprinted or podcast. I hang out with a lot of people in this field and enjoy their company and their respect.<br />
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I'm not a fan of self-publishing or nontraditional approaches. It works for some people, but I want my work to be a part of the professional sf field as much as I want an audience.<br />
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<a href="http://www.bleedingcool.com/2014/04/20/another-day-another-hugo-controversy/">Vox Day, the neo-Nazi who was removed from SFWA for hate speech</a>, has been nominated for a Hugo. This is due, at least in part, to conservative blogger and writer <a href="http://monsterhunternation.com/2014/03/25/my-hugo-slate/">Larry Correia's recommendation</a>.<br />
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Correia's confrontational and dismissive of his opponents. I don't like his politics or his tone. <a href="http://monsterhunternation.com/2014/04/20/a-blow-has-been-struck-against-puppy-related-sadness/">But he's absolutely right that there's no "ballot stuffing" in the Hugos.</a> People widely campaign to win these popularity contests. I thought Lev Grossman was a poor choice for the Campbell in 2011, when a writer as original and refreshing as Saladin Ahmed was on the bill. For that matter, Correia was too. But Grossman, who made the transfer to sf from a long career in mainstream fiction, just plain had more friends. That's how the award works.<br />
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So Larry has a platform. He promotes work that he thinks needs exposure in the Hugos, and wants a greater voice for conservatives in the mostly-liberal organization. Some of his recommendations are right-on. Toni Weisskopf at Baen is overdue for a nomination as long-form editor, whether you like Baen's quirks or hate them. Don't mistake this, though, as simply a promotion of work based entirely on quality. Larry is promoting a slate of work that reflects conservative and conservative-friendly work. <br />
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He can do what he wants. But he sure isn't doing his field, his people, or his allies any favors. When Larry recommended Vox Day, he included the works of a known eugenicist, spreader of hate speech and misogynist. I'm not going to repeat Day's disgusting words--Bleeding Cool repeats plenty of them above.<br />
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And the simple face is that if Larry had respect for his community, he would have drawn the line at including Day. He would promote genuine dialogue between liberals and conservatives, not liberals and neo-Nazis.<br />
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Instead, it's probably more important to him that he irk John Scalzi, who drummed Day out of SFWA for his hate speech, and is well-known as a liberal. And this under the pretension that this is about "quality of story."</div>
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Let's wake up. It's 2014. Realpolitik, people. No one votes by quality of work in a vacuum. We've all read our friends' stories first. I'd like to see more Native American writers represented in sf, by hell, because I work on a reservation, and I think Native voices are an important part of the most imaginative of fiction genres. It would be stupid for me to pretend otherwise. I will read everything I can and vote for the best work, but no human being is without bias entirely.</div>
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We are a community. We need to think about who we are giving a platform to by supporting their work. What happens when a scumbag like Day is given a platform, and given support by, a majority of people in this community?</div>
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<i>This community is built on the beauty of the imagination</i>. Everyone has a right to imagine the future, to imagine faraway lands, and everyone can access the beauty of the imagination. Day's platform and Correia and his fans' support for Day says that certain imaginations are not welcome.</div>
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Day is recycling and prettifying every abusive man's "stupid cunt" and "fucking bitch" toward women. And many women who look at the sf field will see it as just another domain of abusive men and those who support them. They will take their voices and their imagination elsewhere</div>
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Day is recycling and prettifying every racist's "dumb Indian" and "black thug." And many Native Americans and African-Americans who look at the sf field will see it as just another organization that gives racism a voice. They will take their voices and their imagination elsewhere.</div>
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Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-85022249070644786282014-04-13T21:42:00.001-07:002014-04-17T12:58:24.024-07:00My NorWesCon scheduleI'm sorry for neglecting you, blog! I will show you some love. For now, my Norwescon schedule:<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Fantasy in Comics</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Fri 1PM - 2PM </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Cascade 5</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Comics have great potential for fantasy as a visual medium. Fantasy comics range from traditional fantasy like Prince Valiant to the more unique Bone, and reinterpretations like Fables and Conan. Here's a look at some of the great work that has been done and what's being published currently, from comics to graphic novels, and how fantasy comics have evolved over time. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Jeff Grubb (M), Clinton J. Boomer, Spencer Ellsworth, Duane Wilkins</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Comics and Cultural Appropriation </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Fri 3-4 PM</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;"> Cascade 5</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">How accurate are comics are portraying different cultures? Does the medium limit or enhance an artist's or writer's ability to genuinely show other races and cultures? Our panelists will discuss how comics such as Habibi and Scalped represent other cultures and how comics can pay homage to other cultures without marginalizing them. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Dennis R. Upkins (M), Clinton J. Boomer, Spencer Ellsworth, G. Willow Wilson</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Lies My Writing Teacher Told Me</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Fri 5-6 PM</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;"> Cascade 2</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Much of what we think we know about publishing is wrong--or rather, it's not true anymore. This panel aims to dispel common myths and radically update everyone's understanding of etiquette, norms, and plausible paths to success in this fast-changing industry. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Dean Wells (M), Susan DeFreitas, Spencer Ellsworth, Diana Pharaoh Francis</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">The New Big Two</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Fri 6-7 </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Cascade 2</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">How has DC's treatment of creators affected their business and fans? What does Disney have in store for Marvel comics? Hear our panelists discuss upcoming news on the biggest publishers in American comics. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Ashley Cook (M), Spencer Ellsworth</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Comics for Young Adults and Teens</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Sat 11-12 AM/PM</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;"> Cascade 6</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Our panelists will discuss a range of comics that are age-appropriate for a younger audience, including graphic novels like Bone as well as popular titles like Adventure Time. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Spencer Ellsworth (M), Lola Watson, G. Willow Wilson</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Reading: Spencer Ellsworth</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Sat 7 PM- 7:30 PM </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Cascade 1</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">Something new! Rated PG</span><br />
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Hence the title of this blog post.<br />
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It was a stunningly productive year and one full of huge changes.<br />
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I have three kids now instead of just two. This is in an interesting development. It means that there is no more "you deal with that one, I'll deal with this one." If our kids are split into two categories, the categories are Baby and Not-Baby.</div>
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My three-year-old and six-year-old are cute, but when they bawl I want to tell them to fix their own damn problems. When the baby cries she sticks her lip out and big baby tears appear and she must be held and lovie loved. This is the main difference.</div>
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The baby's name is Brigitta, although I call her Betty after my grandmother, who always hated the idea of Betty being a proper name and not just a nickname. All solved.</div>
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- I sold <a href="http://www.newworlds.co.uk/">two</a> <a href="http://toastedcake.com/2013/11/toasted-cake-94-the-girl-who-was-loved-by-the-sea-by-spencer-ellsworth-read-by-dave-thompson.html">stories</a>.</div>
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- I wrote a novel! From start to finish. I began it in March, desperately writing fifteen minutes a day. It's a total piece of crap. But it has a beginning, middle, end.</div>
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- I recorded and mixed and released Pawnbroker's new album. <a href="http://pawnbrokerband.bandcamp.com/album/dance-at-the-end-of-the-world">BUY IT IT'S REALLY GOOD.</a> Seriously. We dumped our brains and sexies into it.</div>
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- I bought a house! This was a big first for us. We've been saving in order to buy inside Bellingham city limits (can't do zero down in any liveable places around here). We had a great realtor, a former builder, who was also an old friend. It was a massive financial juggle with only one huge expensive last-minute extra issue. We just got in before Christmas. Wowee.</div>
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- I actually lost a little weight. I've been about ten pounds up from comfortable for years, and I am now back at comfortable.</div>
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- I determined that I wanted to change Primary Job, and have begun the transition...</div>
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- I quit writing for IGMS, and started writing for Bleeding Cool.</div>
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There were more things. My only disappointment was in the lack of publication, but most of that is due to lack of submission. A Hugo or Nebula wouldn't hurt.</div>
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By far the greatest side effect of this list, besides the cute baby squees, is this: writing feels fun again. For the last few years I've had to shackle myself to my desk. This year I looked forward to just about everything I sat down to do.</div>
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I am not sure why. I came out of a long depression that began in 2011, for one. I was teaching so much (and really enjoying it) that I got the reverse of teacher burnout; I had to write to process everything I was doing.</div>
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Now, I would like to point to this as a model productivity year. All year long I worked a full-time and a part-time job and I was a full-time parent (that includes time spent behind a locked door, pretending I wasn't there, btw). I am fairly amazed that I got all this sheeeeyit done.</div>
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A shout out to my buddy Matt Campbell. His book drops December 3rd! Matt and I have been in a writing group for years, although he's not very good about attending. (Angry look).<br />
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<span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif;">As a Spirit Summoner, Darr learns he can enter the spirit realm. There he has access to the elemental magic contained within the Sephirs, legendary artifacts that once promised balance for a world turning towards chaos. Now, the Sephirs’ powers are dwindling since their untimely disappearance, and Darr is at the center of the quest to find and recover them. Suddenly, Darr’s curiosity is a whirlpool threatening to drown him, but his compulsion to see things through locks him into a journey attracted to disaster.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif;">For the Sephirs do more than restrain the primal forces of magic. The Devoid, an evil long caged and hungry, has begun to loosen the bars of its prison. If the Sephirs fail, the Devoid will escape and feed on the Light of the living until nothing remains.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif;">And the Devoid knows Darr’s lack of confidence is the key needed to free itself completely.</span><br />
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If you don't, <a href="http://www.wired.com/underwire/2013/09/penny-arcade-expo-dickwolves/">this is the general idea</a>. And <a href="http://www.penny-arcade.com/2013/09/04/some-clarification">this is Mike Krahulik's recent apology</a>. And you can find the original strip in there somewhere. Links upon links upon links!<br />
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For the record, I don't go to PAX. I do read Penny Arcade. I love the comic's absolute lack of decorum. I have to admit I chuckled at the dickwolves joke. It was so bizarre and over-the-top. As I read it, I realized it could be offensive to rape victims. I didn't think that was the intent, but I was interested to see what conversation would come of any backlash.<br />
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Once that backlash arrived, the PA guys reacted in an utterly stupid, immature, disingenuous way. I think they've finally realized that.<br />
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And I know why. I've been accused of rape humor when I really meant something else entirely. Not just using it in an over-the-top way like Penny Arcade did--in this case I meant something completely different. When someone took my humor as a rape joke, I immediately sprang to my own defense, and painted myself as a victim, and said "how could you think that of me..."<br />
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I should have just said, "Oh, I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry to have hurt you or brought up bad feelings. Please forgive me." That easy.<br />
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But hey, it was a nice awakening, and I was embarrassed, and I started to become aware of rape culture and all the subtle cues I had absorbed growing up about rape. I don't get to decide what should and shouldn't be a trigger. So I thank my friend for working with me (and still being my friend) on the whole thing.<br />
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Point being, the conversation is less about whether or not Krahulik was being an idiot, and more about PAX itself, and whether the gaming convention fosters rape culture and culture hostile to women. Would you be better off quitting PAX in protest? Or should you stay, trying to use your influence to change the organization from within? This is much like another conversation I am very familiar with. It has to do with a large institution, staffed by committed volunteers, and driven by deep passion for the material. (Not SFWA, but that applies here too.) This institution is rife with problems, deep-seated in rape culture and homophobic culture, and yet it has great potential.<br />
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The Mormon Church.<br />
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I'm what author Samuel Woolley Taylor called an "eating Mormon"--I'll go to events where food is served, but you'll have a hard time catching me in church. I don't get a lot out of the services themselves. I've been to congregations where I really enjoyed the services, because we talked about the things that interested me--feminism, LDS history, the Church's tendency to rewrite said history to "safer" versions.<br />
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Around here, at least in church, people stick to the safe stuff. I get bored.<br />
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The Internet has opened up a lot more dialogue than Mormons used to tolerate. So while many LDS people I know glommed on to the deep-in-rape-culture post <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/05/fyi-teenage-girl-controversy-mother-slut-shaming_n_3874957.html">FYI: If You're A Teenage Girl</a>, this <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/marisa-mcpeckstringham/fyi-if-youre-a-teenage-boy_b_3880516.html">satirical rebuttal</a> was written by a Mormon mother. Since Proposition 8, <a href="http://campaignstops.blogs.nytimes.com/2012/06/13/equal-rights-gay-rights-and-the-mormon-church/?_r=0">the gay-rights-Mormon minority has been more and more vocal</a>.<br />
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But the LDS Church fosters an unhealthy (in my humble opinion) near-worship of their leaders, so that few people are willing to talk about issues in the Church for fear of undermining the Brethren and going against the general grain. This is why many moderate Mormons supported Prop 8 in California, and thirty years ago, opposed the Equal Rights Amendment. Because the leaders said so. Only liberal Mormons seem to have a problem with, for instance, <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/08/boyd-k-packer-tolerance_n_3038815.html">"The Tolerance Trap."</a> The leaders are supposed to be modern-day prophets, so while they are not infallible, you'd have a hard time figuring out where that "not" begins with orthodox Mormons.<br />
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If you're interested in the ex-mormon/liberal, doubting Mormon point of view, <a href="http://mormonexpression.com/">the Mormon Expression podcast</a> gives a lot of good overviews. (If you want to know the orthodox LDS viewpoint, just find the guys on their bikes.)<br />
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My wife attends every Sunday although, like me, she is bored a lot, and sometimes offended. Unlike me, though, she believes that she can change things. She may be right. She works with teenage girls, and has determined to create a sex-positive, inclusive, tolerant (gasp!) curriculum. This is great, considering that most Mormon girls grow up with damaging messages about sex. For instance, the leaders in my congregation in the 90s would lick the frosting off a cupcake, ask if any girls in the audience wanted it, and then explain that the cupcake symbolized a girl robbed of her "virtue." <a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Book-Mormon-Girl-American/dp/1451699689/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1378609185&sr=8-1&keywords=book+of+mormon+girl">I'm not alone</a>. A particularly choice verse in the Book of Mormon describes extramarital sex as "the sin near unto murder." I knew missionaries who spent their two years in deep, crippling depression and anxiety because they could not stop masturbating. Some tried to commit suicide. A good leader can intervene before these attitudes develop.<br />
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Mormonism offers a rich history and a profound set of opportunities to serve. Even from a pessimistic point of view, that church ain't going NOWHERE. It's huge, it's rich, it converts at a rapid rate.<br />
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Returning (finally) to PAX, a volunteer, blogger or participant has a certain sphere of influence within their organization. So... stay in or get out?<br />
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In any organization that fits this strained comparison, it might be helpful to ask yourself a few questions:<br />
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1- What do I get out of this organization? Is it fulfilling for me?<br />
2- Am I in a position to mitigate damage that might come from leaders, other members? Am I willing to speak up and isolate myself when these messages are shared?<br />
3- Am I willing to choose my battles?<br />
4- If I leave and criticize the organization from the outside, will my criticism be more effective than my presence would be on the inside?<br />
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There are other questions but this blog post is turning into a book. Which reminds me. I read books. Next time I post, it will be a nice simple book review. Amen!Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-24892398303447118022013-09-04T10:11:00.003-07:002013-09-04T10:35:46.037-07:00The State of the Rock<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">I have debated whether to post this. What the heck.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">You've got friends who are in bands, who put on comedy shows, or who put on a local circus. If you don't, I feel bad for you, son.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">Those friends send you even invites every time they perform. You RSVP to some. Sometimes you go. Often you forget, or you RSVP to some and then the night rolls around and you can't do it. I was just there. I had RSVPed to an event Monday night, and by the time I got the kids in bed, the event was half over, and I had to be up at 6:30 for the first day of school, so I flaked. Yep, it happens.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">Thing is, those clubs that host the shows? Unless you live in a one-bar town with nowhere else to go, they expect said bands and comedians and performers to bring the audience.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">My band, eh, well, we are liked. Many a compliment do we receive, and our CD sells well online, and we can usually book on the strength of our recordings. But our audience? Our turnout? Not so much. We just played at a great venue. The other bands liked us, the patrons liked us, and the bar staff liked us. But we won't get invited back.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">We didn't smash a urinal or fight the bar staff. No, all our friends, all 70 that we invited, failed to show. We brought three family members, two of whom got in on the guest list. The bar didn't break even for the night.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">We will never play there again. </span><i class="_4-k1 img sp_ac8hot sx_1d5b83" style="background-color: white; background-image: url(https://fbstatic-a.akamaihd.net/rsrc.php/v2/yJ/r/cnwlEbWXfAq.png); background-position: 0px -2217px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; color: #333333; display: inline-block; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; height: 16px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">We've puzzled three hours, till our puzzler was sore. Perhaps we rely too much on friends. Perhaps we're not reaching the right group of fans. Perhaps we need to pursue different venues.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">Or perhaps this situation sucks.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">First question out of any bar owner's mouth is not "What does the music sound like?" It's "can you bring a crowd?" Well, bar owner, let me ask you this. When you can watch two hours of live footage from your favorite bands online, when Netflix is calling and you've got millions of songs on Spotify, do you always go support your favorite local bands?</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">I'm sure you did when you were 19 and life was all about punk shows. Or maybe you're one of those lucky popular folks who never lacks for followers. For the rest of us, it's a real gamble. We've played with one of the biggest bands in the Seattle/Bellingham area, <a href="http://keatonco.tumblr.com/">Keaton Collective,</a>and not only did our audience failed to show, theirs did too. They have over one thousand likes on Facebook, they get played on KEXP, and there were maybe three people in the audience that night.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;">We love what we do. And we want to share it with you. Every show we play is a privilege and a reward and the product of thousands and thousands of hours of hard work. It's NOT for us. We want to play you a kind of music you do not hear everywhere.We busted our brains and hammered out songs and put in week after week of practice in our drummer's basement to make something UNIQUE. Oh, and we sank tons of our money into instruments and recording gear.</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13.333333969116211px; line-height: 18.88888931274414px;" />
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Stay tuned for when it drops! Things I learned:<br />
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- My singer lives in the same house where Death Cab For Cutie lived in the 1990s. I know this because my friend Chris also lived there. When Chris moved in, a quick search of the attic yielded the detritus of Death Cab's "side gig"--clippings, fertilizer, reflective sheets and various other weed-growing paraphernalia.<br />
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- It's cool to look at my Shure SM7B and be like "I OWN THAT."</div>
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This is a bar mitzvah for musicians. I finally own a nice vocal mic!</div>
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- It's not that cool that it weirds out the pitch correction function in Logic Express. Our singer Nicole doesn't need pitch correction, but I'm not so good with the whole staying in key thing...</div>
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- Don't try to record an album and have a baby within a few months of each other.</div>
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- I still don't know how to describe our music. "We want to put the 60s and the 90s together" is my best. Someone smart said, "sweet driving in the rain music."</div>
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- HEY! Readers! If you can come up with a better description in the comments, I'll send you a prize! (What's that? The prize that you want is for me to stop spamming you with my band stuff? Okay, wiseguy...)</div>
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- One can put songs together just through the process of recording. Two of the tracks did not so much have endings or arrangements. We kind of invented said arrangements, in our drummer's basement, during the recording sessions. Yeah! It's like free-form funk inspiration. Or possibly like the part on Spinal Tap where they decide to become an acid-jazz band.</div>
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- "Like the part on Spinal Tap where they decide to become an acid-jazz band" is not <i>quite</i> a good description of our music.</div>
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- I can't deny it any more. I need to lose some weight. There has definitely been more of me in the last year of band photos. On the world tour, when I tear my shirt off, I don't want everyone to be horrified.</div>
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It will go thus: Writing Week, Music Week, Food/Fitness Week and Teaching/Parenting Week.<br />
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This week, I discuss the Great Never-Wrote.<br />
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So who's your Great Never-Had, people?<br />
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If you haven't hear the term, the Great Never-Had is your hopeless crush, or a relationship ended before its time, or a relationship that died before it started.<br />
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My great Never-Had was an artist, a vegetarian, and a redhead. I tried to date her all through my junior year of high school and failed. When senior year started, she serendipitously reciprocated. A few blissful months later, my Spider-Sense told me she was not that interested in me and was about to break up with me any minute.<br />
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Disclaimer: my Spider-Sense sounds exactly like typical adolescent neurosis.<br />
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So I dumped her, then went right back to pining after her. She, rightly, surmised that I had broken her heart once and I was a farking mess.<br />
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She got over me. I piiiiiiiiined.<br />
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We lost contact for a while, then became friends again in college. At this point, she ate meat, gave up painting, joined the Army, and went brunette. I had a lot of fun with her, but I never dated her college incarnation. Yet if her high school incarnation showed up to my 22-year-old self's door and said she'd take me back... damn the age gap, damn the time travel, I would have done it.<br />
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In writing terms, she has a cousin in the Great Never-Wrote. More accurately, the Great Wrote-But-Never-Got-Right. It's that novel or story that you pour your soooooooul into, cram all your ideas into, rewrite and rewrite and give to everyone to critique and then...<br />
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...you send it out and no one even wants to look at it. Or you realize that you learned a lot, but the ambition of the project has contributed to its downfall. It's too big and unwieldy. The plot hinges on an event that just does not work. The story is an allegory for your faith, but you became an atheist. The love interest is based on your great Never-Had and you don't want her to recognize herself because now you're Facebook friends (that's a stupid reason not to write something, btw).<br />
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My Great Never-Wrote sits, unfinished, in the middle of it's <i>fourth </i>full rewrite. That's not revision. That is Re-Write, from scratch, starting with a blank page.<br />
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It started as a novel called Blood Earth, which I wrote in 2004. For this novel, I took the four or so fantasy ideas I had and threw them all together into a blender. The result was cool. Part epic fantasy, part portal fantasy, part doomed messiah, part religious war.<br />
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So by 2005 it was ready for submission, and I put together some subs and sent it out and... THUD.<br />
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That was a good year for form rejections. I hope you bought stock in stationary in 2005.<br />
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In 2007, I noodled around with a new version of the book. Although it had seemed perfect when I submitted it in 2005, by 2007 I knew where the problems were in the structure. I decided to try rewriting it. What could it hurt?<br />
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The original version had been set in a nondescript fantasy world. I made the whole thing more like the Crusades, my favorite historical clusterf***, and my elevator pitch became "it's the Crusades, if the Muslims were telepaths and the Christians were shape-shifters."<br />
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Version 2.0 was a mess, but a good one. I changed a lot, let it breathe, added characters, tried four titles and finally closed it out at 220,000 words. That's over one thousand manuscript pages. I whittled it down to 180,000 and gave it to my writing group to read. We were all in agreement that it was...<br />
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...still a mess.<br />
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I decided cut away some of the characters to simplify things. Instead of six viewpoint characters, we went down to four. I got kind of far in that version, but couldn't deal with the issues I had now created for the ending, because so many crucial characters had been cut.<br />
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I was tired. It was now 2010. The title of the work was now "The Betrayer's Song." I referred to it as The BS.<br />
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In late 2010, I attended <a href="http://viableparadise.net/">Viable Paradise,</a> a one-week science fiction writing workshop on Martha's Vineyard. At VP, I had a VISION.<br />
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I knew how to fix the Great Never-Wrote. I got home and finished NaNoWriMo 2010 in two weeks. I wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote and burned out at 82,000 words, with about 60,000 words left to go. Stuck, I gave that version to a friend who said "Your first chapter really needs to be a novel of its own. This is great but it's Book Two." And, while this is dangerous advice to heed, I thought he was right. The advice clicked. So throughout 2011 and 2012 I wrote 110,000 words on the first-chapter-into-a-whole-novel version... and burned out with only 20 or 30 thousand words to go.<br />
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In the words of Tolkien, "Foresight had failed and there was no time for thought." Less profound: I have such a huge pile of The BS, and nothing to do with it.<br />
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This year, I started working on an entirely different project, although I'm recycling some of the stuff I threw away in early drafts of The BS.<br />
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I think about it often. Specifically, I think about the fun I had writing it way back in 2004 when I didn't know what I was doing. Or the joy of that late-night idea session at VP. My critique group's feedback on the second version. And the most recent version, for which I have notes and fix attempts from just a few months ago.<br />
<br />Occasionally I pine. But I don't pine for what I have now. What I have now is a huge mess. I pine for all the times I thought it was working, and I knew exactly what to do with it.<br />
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(However, I did cull a number of flashback sequences and publish them as the story <a href="http://www.beneath-ceaseless-skies.com/stories/the-death-of-roach-by-spencer-ellsworth/">"The Death of Roach."</a> In case you want to know what the world looks like.)<br />
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How about you? What's your Great Never-Wrote?<br />
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(Although this is so 2006, I still believe in the virtues of a good comment left on the blog page, in the blog's format. So leave one if you have an answer. I<br />
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comments!)Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-61659026296076326872013-08-09T12:28:00.002-07:002013-08-09T12:28:29.614-07:00In Which I Am Not Dead!I haven't written much since the baby was born. Because how can you write with this cuteness around? THE CUTENESS MUST BE HEEDED!<br />
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Buuuut, I went to the <a href="http://cascadewriters.com/">Cascade Writers workshop</a>/<a href="http://www.jlake.com/2013/07/29/photosevents-jaywake-the-retrospective/#more-22905">JayWake</a> the weekend of the 26th and I got myself all fired up. [Then I went to a wedding and forgot about this blog post. Bear with me.]<br />
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If you do not know of this workshop, you should. Karen, the grand poobah of the workshop, runs A Classy Joint. Crit groups roll with with published novelists and their New York editors and agents. Your tuition includes one-on-one time both with your group leaders and said agents.<br />
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When I arrived, I felt down. I've been going to this workshop since 2008, with one small break for 2010. Nothing much had changed about my situation this year from when I attended in 2012. In 2012, I was mired in the pits of an unfinished novel. Now I've given up on that one and I... am mired in another unfinished novel. Since last year, I published one story at non-pro rates, and then pulled it for a contract dispute.<br />
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Ask any writer, and you will find that there is a wall they want to leap ('step to take' doesn't describe the effort involved). For a long time, that wall is Publication, Oh, Please, God, Any Publication. Then there's where I am, More Respectable Publication. In SF, that means pro-rate pay of 5 cents a word US or more. I need one more pro sale to qualify for SFWA membership. Nice reviews and award nominations wouldn't hurt.<br />
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All writers have their wall, whether it's Sell New Novel Series or Avoid Internet Feuds. George R.R. Martin's is "Finish This Book In Less Than Six Years." JK Rowling's wall is "Keep The Next Pseudonym Secret REALLY REALLY JOANNE F.F.S."<br />
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I've been at More Respectable Publication for a long time. Since 2011. Not coincidentally, all through 2012 I had 2+ kids and 2+ jobs.<br />
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So I got to the workshop, collapsed on my hotel bed, and thought, "I should have stayed home. I'm not getting anywhere." Then I slapped myself for being a self-pitying dork and got up to prepare my presentations and critiques. Cue "<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MR6FXpaECY8">Gonna Fly Now</a>."<br />
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My first presentation was What Agents Want with <a href="http://maassagency.com/cameron-mcclure/">Cameron</a>, where I dragged out the part of my brain that, a long time ago, worked for a literary agency. I gave the usual shpiel, which I will repeat here for you: agents want to pay the rent. Give the agent a reason why people will buy the book.<br />
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Also useful: While your agent is shopping around your manuscript, write like crazy, blog like crazy, and generally put yourself out there. It's the writing version of Dan Savage's maxim "don't complain that no one wants to have sex with you; go make yourself into the kind of person people want to have sex with."<br />
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After What Agents Want, the good folk of the workshop gathered around and practiced pitching their novels. I critiqued every form of pitch, from elevator pitches, query letters, and rambling explanations of what the audience members' books were about. There is some serious talent out there, people. I heard about a lot of really excellent novels.<br />
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Pitch practice this year went a lot better than it did last year. I held a pitch practice session last year in which I tried, off the cuff, to pitch my complete novel The Great Faerie Strike.<br />
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The 2012 pitch was terrible. I couldn't pitch my own novel!<br />
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This year I stayed away from such things and just went with other people's pitches. We will come back to that abortive session last year, though. This year was a success, partially due to the fact that I didn't make a horrible example of myself.<br />
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Then, I got to explore the joy of grammar with Your Sentences Suck. This was an interesting presentation. Call me a weirdo, but there is no possible way I can squeeze my love of sentence structure into fifty minutes.<br />
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I started out by talking about structure, and the eyes, they did glaze over. BUT. IT'S IMPORTANT. You, dear reader, need to understand the difference between interrogative, simple, and cumulative sentences. I would have liked to spend more time on subjects, verbs and objects, because they trip everyone up. As it was, I moved on, in order to avoid said glazing over<br />
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I got to the good stuff, though. Partially thanks to <a href="http://www.randy-henderson.com/">Randy's</a> handy handout. (I am not so much with the organization, so I got a guy to keep me in line.)<br />
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A sentence, like a prostitute masquerading as an FBI plant masquerading as a prostitute, offers many levels of proposition. A sentence like "Invisible God created a visible world" proposes all sorts of meanings. Oftentimes we aren't aware of everything we propose in a sentence, or For more, check out the <a href="http://www.thegreatcourses.com/tgc/courses/course_detail.aspx?cid=2368">Great Courses course by Brooks Landon</a>.<br />
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Chrissy and the kids came down for JayWake on Saturday night. Much has been blogged regarding JayWake. I enjoyed it and was glad to show Jay our support. I even served as a pallbearer (for Jay's live body in a prop coffin). Quite unique and bittersweet. Despite best efforts, I cried. Lots of other people did too. We'll miss you, Jay. Don't leave yet.<br />
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On Day The Last, Cameron (and later Claire, the Tor editor present) asked me what I was working on. I brought up The Great Faerie Strike. Now, since last year, I've revised that novel and readied it for publication. Aaaand, I've worked on my pitch. Apparently I've done well, because both of them liked the pitch, and asked to see the book.<br />
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Pitches aren't much in the writing business, because they require a subset of skills that are only part of good writing. HOWEVER. I left knowing that I had improved since last year. The pitch that flubbed last year had been refined, purified, made goodenough.<br />
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And, I realized, I had submitted a novel for the first time since 2005.<br />
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Whether or not anyone takes the novel, that's definitely an important step in the work out to jump the wall.<br />
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How about you, dear readers? What's your wall and what are you doing to leap it? If any of you are secretly JK Rowling, you are exempt from leaving comments.Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-52636341408897699442013-05-23T00:03:00.000-07:002013-05-23T00:08:15.696-07:00Why I'm Not Seeing Ender's Game (It's Not Quite What You Think)Hello everyone! Remember back when you were 11 and you read Ender's Game, and it blew your mind because you somehow didn't see the twist coming, and you would have killed a baby goat to see a movie of it?<br />
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Yeah, that was me.<br />
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I was the archetypal audience for the book. A gifted child--and didn't I know it, as part of a gifted program at school and alienated by my terrible lack of ability at sports--and a bookish one, and one who had one older sibling who, if I squinted, could seem tyrannical, and a similarly sympathetic younger sister. This was a book about ME. More or less. Minus the part where I got recruited for war.<br />
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It's a refrain Card was to take up. His introduction to the "Author's Definitive Edition" ten years later talked about how the book stirred the hearts of alienated, "gifted" kids everywhere.<br />
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Also, it's a book about videogames. About strategy, with strategic decisions that put the Hunger Games to shame. (The enemy's gate is down!) Looking back, I liked the book for many of the same reasons I liked the more juvenile <i>Redwall. Redwall </i>is also about a young, gifted but isolated individual who has to reason through a series of puzzles in order to fulfill his destiny, although the Abbott never tricked Matthias into committing genocide.<br />
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In the last few years, Orson Scott Card's politics have seemed entirely out of step with his sympathy for the unloved and alienated. <a href="http://www.salon.com/2013/03/07/end_game_for_orson_scott_card_partner/">This article</a> from Salon makes for some interesting speculation, but ultimately we can just presume that the guy, like all people, is a crazy mess of contradictions.<br />
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But let's talk about the book. And about the <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vP0cUBi4hwE">absolutely spec-fraking-tacular trailer</a> that dropped a few weeks ago. Oh man, my 11-year-old self did backflips inside. I promptly went online to share my joy--and quite rightly, got questioned.<br />
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After all, if you scroll down this blog three mere posts, you will read my public repudiation of Card. I don't want anything to do with the guy, although I bear him no personal ill will; it's his political activism I find repugnant.<br />
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Truth: I can lapse enough to see one movie. It's one thing to not want your name to appear in print as a representative of him; it's less (or so I thought) of a moral compromise to pay nine dollars to partake in a piece of entertainment made by a huge group of people including Card. I don't like that he's involved. I don't like his politics. But I'm human. I want to see the damn movie more than I want to make a statement by withholding nine dollars.<br />
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Until I realized something else. And in that realization, it all unraveled.<br />
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Ben Kingsley is a British actor of Indian descent. In the film, he's cast as Mazer Rackham, a character of Maori descent. He wears a set of Maori facial tattoos.<br />
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I don't know much about Maori facial tattoos. I work on an Indian reservation (or Native American or First Nations--the truth is that most of my students and fellow faculty still use the term "Indian") and I know a lot about indigenous issues.<br />
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None of my students like <i>Pocahontas, Dances With Wolves, </i>or <i>Last of the Mohicans </i>(except for the fact, which we all will admit, that the last has stunning music). None of them want to see a white person adopted by Indians saving the day. They roll their eyes and groan at the casting of Taylor Lautner as a Northwest Coast Native, and then his silly ad hoc rationalization that he's got a tiny bit of Native blood in him somewhere. They've all heard the old chestnut "My great-grandmother was a Cherokee princess!" (Proper response: "You too? That Cherokee princess sure got around.")<br />
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They do like movies like <i>Thunderheart, </i>where the complication of Native ancestry is acknowledged and explored, and modern Natives, with the modern rez issues, get screen time instead of their romanticized ancestors. They want to see their race portrayed as normal modern human beings who still hold onto their unique culture, by Native actors, or in the case of Val Kilmer, actors whose parts acknowledge their Native ancestry without laying claim to tribal identity.<br />
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A quick Google search of "Maori facial tattoos meaning" produces this:<br />
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<em style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;">Ta moko</em><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"> - traditional Māori tattooing, often on the face - is a</span><em style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;">taonga </em><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;">(treasure)</span><em style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"> </em><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;">to Māori for which the purpose and applications are sacred.</span><br />
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I don't know what justification the producers of <i>Ender's Game </i>can offer, but I can't imagine a justification that would explain to me why an actor whose qualification is "more or less brown" gets to wear tattoos specific to one people's sacred traditions. In a multimillion dollar movie. Because why? It seems to be solely to show how Mazer Rackham is a badass.<br />
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The tattoos were never described in the book, IIRC. Card is famous for not describing how people look, but you'd think he would mention facial tattoos!<br />
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Can't give up the tattoos, Summit Entertainment? Then find a Maori actor who is rooted in the culture and language and people of New Zealand. There's no shortage of Maori actors on those islands!<br />
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This points to a much greater problem. This problem encompasses Card's politics, Hollywood's lack of respect for indigenous people, and really, all the things I didn't see in <i>Ender's Game</i> when I was eleven.<br />
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John Kessel has it right in his provocative essay, <a href="http://www4.ncsu.edu/~tenshi/Killer_000.htm">"Creating The Innocent Killer."</a> <i>Ender's Game </i>skirts responsibility, because it assumes that Ender's motivations carry the morality of the day. Ender kills two boys in cold blood because he wants to win. Each murder, of Bonzo and Stilson, is astonishingly sympathetic.<br />
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I imagine that the desire to pay service to the story is, to the minds of the Hollywood elite painting Maori traditions on an Englishman's face, a noble justification on its own.<br />
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In the novel, nothing is really Ender's fault. He's being used, because he is so talented and so alienated, in order to create the perfect weapon. This resonated with me because I felt distanced, bullied and used.<br />
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Shockingly, in all the discussion of this book, I've never heard anyone say "Well, how could Ender have stopped it?" Very easily, actually. Ender knew, throughout the book, that he was being used by a corrupt system and all he had to say was "no, I'm done." At several points he tries, half-assedly, to stop it.<br />
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But in the end, Ender's inherent goodness justifies things.<br />
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Why didn't he just say "no?"<br />
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I'm not going to lie. Telling me I was "gifted" led me to genuinely see myself as better--more noble, smarter, with a great destiny--than every other person around me. All eleven-year-olds carry around major fallacies. But with <i>Ender's Game, </i>we seem to have extended that fallacy, justifying Ender's actions because he was part of the system of the "gifted." He was told over and over again "you are our only hope" and he was somehow, despite his brains, not smart enough to see that this might be one more lie in a corrupt system.<br />
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We use this attitude to feed privilege. The kind of privilege that says sacred facial tattoos can be appropriated to sell a movie.<br />
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If teaching has taught me anything, it's that the idea of "gifted students" is utterly poisonous and was one of the worst influences on my childhood and my mental health. I'm not gifted. I think I have a great capacity for learning, especially in certain areas. But all my students have capacity for learning. Particularly on the rez, where college education and literacy are not held at a premium, "gifted" is a misnomer. My students who succeed are the ones who work their asses off.<br />
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They are the ones who don't let the deaths and drug abuse and poverty in their family stop them from turning in papers, who read and discuss works at a college level when they may not have read a book until last year, ever. They are the ones whose recent life trajectories are: rehab, clinic, GED, college.<br />
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I am damn proud of them.<br />
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And here comes this movie all about this special kid whose motives are so pure that he can't see through an obviously corrupt system, and he doesn't protest, but is used to commit genocide and just can't stop it because the system is too big. And in order to sell the movie, it's okay to violate the inherent sacredness of Maori tradition, to sell a big Westernized movie.<br />
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This is a movie about how certain people are special, about how certain people are inherently virtuous, and about how certain people have a profound understanding of humankind and their inherent goodness cannot be taken away, even if they commit genocide.<br />
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I call bullshit.<br />
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In Kessel's words, "No one is that special. No one is that innocent."<br />
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So you're human and you loved the book and you want to see the movie. I don't blame you. Until a few days ago, I was with you.<br />
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Now, I see <i>Ender's Game </i>as another bucolic childhood dream, with its reality as far removed from the truth of human interaction as that of the talking mice and evil rats in <i>Redwall.</i> The difference is, there's not a multimillion dollar movie campaign trying to convince you that mice are inherently noble.Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-12394945883266203312013-05-15T21:11:00.003-07:002013-05-15T21:11:49.417-07:00Story! "The Skin of the Lesser God"Hey, I'm alive!<br />
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I've been teaching for two schools, getting read to have a baby, and have had my brain EATEN ALIVE by a novel idea. I made it to about 78,000 words before hitting a Horrible Middle and slowing down. The pitch for the novel is thus: The Cuban Missile Crisis as an epic fantasy. Two bloated, over-armed empires face each other down over a little spit of land... and our main character is the nuclear missile in question.<br />
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I am racing <a href="http://seamusbayne.net/">Seamus Bayne</a> in this endeavor. Both of us are sitting in the dirt trying to decide who is the tortoise and who is the hare, and not moving.<br />
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BUT.<br />
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I have <a href="http://newworlds.co.uk/fiction.php?fiction_id=25">a new story up at Michael Moorcock's New Worlds!</a><br />
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You'll have to register with them to see, and pay a bit of money to your British overlords. But it is worth it just to see the amazing cover art <a href="http://tomhuntnojabroni.tumblr.com/">Tom Hunt</a> came up with.<br />
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"The Skin of the Lesser God" started from a phrase in an old novel. I had tossed around the phrase "godskin" meaning "god's kin." Someone rightly asked me whether I meant "god skin." And of course, I wondered who in the world would go around skinning gods and, as one might, wearing the hides.<br />
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Then I figured out who.<br />
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Aztec, Norse, and African myth all collide in this one. This is one that has an unusual lack of direct female characters, but since they are all gods and thus archetypes, I think you are free to see them as at least somewhat sexless, or transcending gender.<br />
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I have another, very different story coming from <a href="http://toastedcake.com/">Toasted Cake</a> later this year as well. Enjoy!<br />
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<br />Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-59494576933892911552013-02-27T21:21:00.005-08:002013-02-27T21:21:53.820-08:00Lots Of PageviewsI decided I should write a post because my last post got a lot of views.<br />
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The mood at the party, ya see.<br />
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Uh... damn, the M&M jar is out again. Let me refill that.<br />
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Have a scotch.<br />
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Have a non-affiliated-with-Orson-Scott-Card cookie.<br />
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Seriously, thanks for the support, and the polite disagreement. I want to reiterate: a lot of what the man said has been cherry-picked and taken out of context, and he supports things I support, but... he's affiliated with National Organization For Marriage, and there are your boss's annoying opinions and then your boss's activism.<br />
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Thanks so much to the people who sent me leads on other places to put a column. No bites yet, but I think something is coming my way.<br />
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Anyway, if you're interested in more opinions on Mormonism and gay people, I wrote a long response to the infamous viral post by Josh Weed. <a href="http://spencerellsworth.blogspot.com/2012/06/in-which-many-mormon-problems-fit-into.html">Here it is again</a>.<br />
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On a totally different subject, I have fallen deep into the hole that is the early 1960s and Don Draper's fragmented psyche. Season 3 now, and I just cannot leave Mad Men alone, even though I suspect it makes me a little depressed about life and money and things.<br />
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It's like they have everything, and they talk about having everything, and they're miserable. And it's like an extensive explanation of This Is Why Baby Boomers Did The Stuff They Did, Because Their Parents Actually Were Messed Up. And it's like, it kind of makes sense.<br />
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I grew up with parents who burned draft cards, partook of "substances" and generally raised hell. I don't love the topical aspect of the show so much as the way it reflects the mindset that gave birth to my parents' mindset, and gave birth to my generation, who lived through a troublesome decade of our own and were mostly... confused. More thoughts as I watch the show. Which I'm getting back to now.<br />
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Also, the one movie scene that could make any man cry.<br />
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<br />Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-50375249459408090702013-02-23T10:01:00.004-08:002013-02-23T10:01:36.550-08:00I Resigned From IGMSPhew.<br />
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Here we go.<br />
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I have resigned from <a href="http://www.intergalacticmedicineshow.com/cgi-bin/mag.cgi?do=columns&vol=spencer_ellsworth&article=_index">writing columns about graphic novels at Orson Scott Card's Intergalactic Medicine Show</a>. In addition, for whatever it's worth, I won't be submitting any more short stories, even though I had a wonderful experience when they chose one of my stories for publication.<br />
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This is because I do not want to be associated with the anti-gay-rights views that Orson Scott Card has become synonymous with.<br />
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This was a hard decision.<br />
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Scott Card was my favorite writer through most of high school, until I replaced him with Octavia Butler, who I learned about through one of Scott Card's books, <i>How To Write Science Fiction and Fantasy. </i>At the time I was far from the controversies that would dominate public discourse about Card. I didn't know he opposed gay rights. I didn't know that I supported them!<br />
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I didn't know my sister was gay. I didn't know that my parents, loyal California voters that they are, would support Proposition 8 in 2008, choosing the requirements of Mormonism over the vocal protests of their daughter and son. I didn't know that I would not blame my parents for their decision.<br />
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But I did know that I wanted to be Just Like Orson Scott Card.<br />
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The man was one of my heroes.<br />
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He had promoted his faith through his writing without soft-pedaling his work or rating it all G. I even admired his complex treatment of a homosexual in a heterosexual society in the <i>Homecoming </i>series. I don't admire that part of it anymore, but I will still defend that series as a great piece of writing.<br />
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He was great at writing misanthropes and people who didn't fit in to a society they were supposed to fit in to. Ender was too smart and persecuted. Nafai was too connected to his spirituality. Jason Worthing was too aware of the foibles of his society.<br />
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As a missionary, I served in his ward and got to have dinner at the man's house. He signed books for us, cooked us salmon, and was a perfectly lovely host.<br />
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In 2005, I attended his writing workshop, where he was again a wonderful host and a great mentor.<br />
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I'm sorry, people who hate him. He's done a lot of nice things for a lot of people with no hope of reward.<br />
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And thus it was easy to ignore the fact that, when he began writing columns for <i>The Rhinoceros Times </i>and <i>The Ornery American, </i>his political views were very far from my developing ones. He was a vocal supporter of President Bush and the invasion of Iraq. I didn't like either; in fact I found Bush's behavior shockingly irresponsible. Big deal; I disagree with lots of people I respect.<br />
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He was surprisingly opposed to gay marriage, considering the rather sympathetic treatment of homosexuals in his work. Oh well. I supported gay rights. My best friend in high school was gay, and although she hadn't come out, I more or less knew my sister was gay. I had always and would always support gay rights. I could work with, be mentored by, and read the works of people I disagree with.<br />
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After I attended his 2005 Boot Camp, I got the opportunity to write comic book reviews for his fledgling magazine, <i>Orson Scott Card's Intergalactic Medicine Show. </i>I cannot express enough how grateful I am for the experience. For five and a half years I got to write about comics and get paid for it! They asked for the work sight unseen, having only seen my work in Card's 2005 workshop, and praised the columns.<br />
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In 2011, IGMS published one of my stories, and the experience, working with editor Ed Schubert and assistant editors Eric James Stone and Scott Roberts, was really wonderful.<br />
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But. Here's the big but.<br />
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Scott Card is not just a vocal opponent of gay rights, he is an activist against them. He sits on the board of the National Organization For Marriage, one of the big supporters of movements like Proposition 8.<br />
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By writing for the magazine, I associate my name with the name of someone who represents the National Organization For Marriage.<br />
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In this he is following the lead of the LDS Church, which also supported Prop 8. And if Prop 8 drove me out of the Church, I had to ask myself if I could remain visibly associated with an anti-gay-rights-activist.<br />
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The conflict in my family over Prop 8 was... well, we never get intense in the Ellsworth house, but it was a conflict. My sister and I were against it. The rest of my family voted for it, or at least abstained.<br />
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This was particularly difficult for me to watch. My father was in a high place in Church leadership, but was a supporter of gay rights. To speak his conscience would have meant that he would lose his calling, possibly his membership, and of course his "eternal blessings."<br />
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It was his name. His name on a roll in Salt Lake City, and what it represented, that he could not lose.<br />
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Adulthood is full of compromises. I can't hold my father's decision against him. I've made lots of compromises in order to stay employed, feed the family and save face. And he didn't support Prop 8; he just laid low.<br />
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But in the words of Arthur Miller's John Proctor: "It is my name, and I cannot have another in my life."<br />
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(Well, unless I pay 80$ at the courthouse. But you know what I mean, semanticists.)<br />
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Looking at what Card has said, I can't compromise on this one. I cannot put my name next to his. I cannot put myself in a place of constant compromise.<br />
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I don't know where it might lead me.<br />
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It's not just gay marriage. It's the comment that <a href="http://www.salon.com/2000/02/03/card/">"there is a hierarchy of suffering,"</a> which violates the principles I teach every day in a tribal school on an Indian reservation. It's the fact that Zdorab, the sympathetic homosexual in <i>Homecoming, </i>was essentially cured, feeling only "the memory of a youthful desire," which is something most people seem to forget when they focus on Card's typically sympathetic homosexual characters. I <a href="http://www4.ncsu.edu/~tenshi/Killer_000.htm">won't go as far as John Kessel</a> in ascribing a dangerous interpretation to Card's fiction, but Zdorab's character arc is only complete if you understand that he really was supposed to have been "cured."<br />
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As to whether or not he should write Superman... actually, I think that one's rather silly, considering that just about every variety of people in history have written about Superman, and if you're going to go after DC Comics, encourage them to demand more accountability for labor practices in the factories that make toys of their characters in China, where abusive conditions are rampant. You get what I mean.<br />
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There is much debate within the sf field about the ethics of submitting to Card's magazine if you support gay rights. For the record, I've known a queer author who published fiction with queer characters in IGMS and never heard a peep; in fact his work was in their year's best. Card takes a giant financial loss to support a magazine of short fiction.<br />
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However, that author, like me, still has some trepidation about the name at the top of the page, and what it means to his name.<br />
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I loved writing that column, and I loved getting paid for it. This is the hardest decision I've made in years. I wish everyone involved with the magazine, including the Cards, the best. And I sure would love it if anyone out there is looking for someone to write about comics and contacts me.<br />
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It is my name. And I cannot have another in my life.Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-45566955239244777522013-02-16T23:18:00.003-08:002013-02-17T00:51:53.481-08:00A Letter To Spencer, Circa 1993Without further ado, I give you this.<br />
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Dear Thirteen-Year-Old Me:</div>
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I just read the ending of The Wheel of Time.</div>
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"Aha," you say, "I must be receiving this missive [don't know about emails, do you?] from three or four years in the future. Perhaps I'm a junior in high school. But no, it couldn't take THAT long to finish the series, could it? There's already five of them!"</div>
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I know what else you are thinking. "I have to know. I want to read the end so badly. I love these books so much."</div>
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You are even thinking "if my house was on fire, the first thing I would save would be those books." Yes, I remember thinking that.</div>
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I'm sorry.</div>
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I'm really sorry.</div>
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I am <i>thirty-three </i>years old, TYOM.</div>
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I have two children and a third on the way, I live in Washington, and I'm a teacher.</div>
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And no, I'm not a professional writer. Kind of close. I have been published. But I have not published any of the massive fantasy volumes I have slaved over.</div>
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There's one that I think I will send off soon. It's short and it's pretty funny. It's got economics in it.</div>
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Wait! Don't cry!</div>
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Seriously, don't cry. I remember crying that much. It's weird and makes people uncomfortable.</div>
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(Although, for what it's worth, the depression and lethargy is not just from puberty, it's partially a complication of your celiac disease, and as annoying as it is, you really, really need to stick to a strictly gluten-free diet, kid. Like, entirely. Not even Postum, damn it! Listen to me.)</div>
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So, how was the book?</div>
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Pretty good. Some stuff was amazing. Some stuff really deserved a little more time. Some stuff was boring and I wish the author had spent less time on it.</div>
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What part of the ending do you want to know? Yes, Rand wins. What did you think would happen? Does he die? Um, kind of.</div>
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He also has hot foursomes with his three wives. At least, it's implied. What does "foursome" mean? Changing subject!</div>
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You have to understand that there are now fourteen of these books. Robert Jordan is dead. He wrote eleven books and died and they drafted someone else to finish the series. They got really bad. I hate to tell you this, but you're not going to even like books eight through eleven.</div>
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And another guy wrote the last three. His name's Brandon Sanderson. They're pretty good books. Gets the series back on track for the most part.</div>
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I met Brandon Sanderson once. He's a really nice guy.</div>
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Yeah, it wasn't me. I know what you're thinking. I would have thought the same thing, had I had this conversation at your age. Who else but the fabulously brilliant, talented Spencer Ellsworth would be drafted to finish the series? After all, I'm 33 and haven't I've had years to write tons of fantasy bestsellers?</div>
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You have, after all, just decided that you will focus all your energies on writing. You sat down at Dad's Macintosh Plus and said "I will be a writer." I remember that decision, and I remember the novel you started as soon as you made that decision.</div>
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You'll finish it, TYOM. You'll finish it and you'll write another one, a huge one, before you finish high school!</div>
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Hell, you'll have an actual girlfriend for a while, and she will even ask to read it, and her determination will outlast the relationship, even. I know, because she just turned up the manuscript when she was moving and she wrote me a Facebook message... it's kind of like a letter... to mention it. And your wife, who is awesome, will start your relationship by breaking into your room and reading all the copies of your stuff you have lying around.</div>
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You will never ever went back on that resolution. You have just made a decision that will change the rest of your life.</div>
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It's just that you won't be a famous author like Robert Jordan. At least not by 33.</div>
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Ah... shit, you're crying again.</div>
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Yes, I swear a lot. It's one of the few advantages of being an adult.</div>
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The truth is, writing is really, really hard. </div>
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You know it's frustrating. But what you don't know is that writing is REALLY frustrating. Like when your sister won't stop berating you frustrating. Like when a cold hangs on for a month. Which is also related to the celiac autoimmune issues. Writing is hard. Like when Mom brings home a bunch of Costco muffins that you can't eat, and you are supposed to just stay away from them because you can't eat them.</div>
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I've written some stuff that I thought was really good. Even as good as The Eye of the World, TYOM. I published some fantasy stories that I think you might really like, if you read them.</div>
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But TYOM, I know you don't want to hear this... life throws you curves. I didn't expect to have kids this young. I did and I love them and they need my time. I didn't expect to feel this exhausted from working a day job and being a dad. I do. Every day I feel more tired than I ever thought possible.</div>
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I didn't realize how much rejection was involved. Call me stupid, but I still hate it when I think about how much stuff I've written that got a billion rejections that I finally threw away.</div>
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Also, the universe is not really handing out contracts to finish a multivolume bestselling fantasy series. We didn't have Mat Cauthon's luck for that one.<br />
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On top of that, there are not a lot of Robert Jordans in the world. In fact, I even worked in the publishing industry, TYOM, and mostly an author gets famous through luck, not skill. They write a book that people didn't know they wanted.</div>
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And, also, I suspect I've never been that good.</div>
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Shit, now <i>I'm </i>crying. Give me a tissue. I know you have a cold. Gluten-free diet, damn it!</div>
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It's a wonder I got through that stupid book--all fourteen of those stupid books--these last few months with this existential crisis on the heels of the reading.</div>
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Truth is, TYOM, you will save yourself a lot of pain and a lot of therapy bills if you realize, right now, that writing is its own reward. Telling a story is fun. But the big famous author dream hasn't happened yet, and may never happen, especially because of how the entertainment industry faces its own Breaking of the World and Last Battle called file-sharing... never mind. You're bored. Point is, when you sit back down at the Mac Plus, think less about your name in print and more about the characters.</div>
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Think about how much you love Rand al'Thor's frenzied journey, and then create a character you can love as much as Rand al'Thor. Then follow him. Or her. You'd be surprised how misogynist you unintentionally are, TYOM.</div>
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Life is better than you can imagine, TYOM. There is even decent gluten-free food in the future. See, I brought you back a muffin. Tastes like the real thing, eh?</div>
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Just be happy with who you become. Much like The Wheel of Time, life has all kinds of derailments, oddities, stupid plot twists, and endless delays. It also has unexpected wonders, and times when everything seems new again.<br />
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Write your way through it.</div>
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Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-40407969422569003862013-01-23T06:51:00.001-08:002013-01-23T06:51:05.875-08:00Only Four Million Words Till The Good Stuff!When I was thirteen, nothing was more important than reading the ending of The Wheel of Time. Yeah. I was one of those thirteen-year-olds.<br />
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There is now an ending. I have not read it.<br />
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Bear with me. There will be a test. (We're talking about Robert Jordan. I'm gonna have to be verbose.)<br />
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Everyone has that author. The one who, for better or for worse, got you when you were twelve, and led you around by the hook of the nose for years and inspired your taste and made you go all dumb and drooly... and who you realized, years later, was not really that good.<br />
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Christmas 1993 and <i>The Eye of the World </i>consumed my brain. When I reread it last year, it consumed me again. A dark, harrowing chase story through a rich and dangerous world. <i>The Great Hunt </i>is similarly dark and thrilling. Book 3 is a bit of a dud but 4 and 5 are quite epic, expanding the world while maintaining the thrills.<br />
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And I was thirteen, therefore all flaws in entertaining writing could be forgiven.<br />
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So I didn't understand at the time that men and women didn't actually interact like this, didn't spend most of their time making maxims about how the other gender was crazy, or that the Aes Sedai could never rule the world while acting like grudge-hoarders on a planning committee at the local Presbyterian church. I didn't understand even some of the skillful parts of his writing, like the fact that Rand al'Thor really was crazy by Book Seven, genuinely, unalterably nuts. He seemed misunderstood. Of course, I didn't understand that because Jordan, after Book Seven, never committed to any subplots, instead throwing out constant new ones.<br />
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And of course I didn't understand that the man was ill from 1997 on. (Also an issue with another author who grabbed my imagination, Octavia Butler.) With all the old-guard military upper lip he could muster, Jordan insisted he was fine while his writing struggled. As my good buddy Jay Lake will tell you, even the most prolific, absorbed writer can be deferred by chemo. (Love and writing power to you, Jay.)<br />
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Book 7: A Crown of Swords (on of the better titles) came out when I was fifteen. Most people quit around books 6 & 7. I drank it up. At eighteen, I sucked up Book 8, which was particularly bad, considering it lacked any mention of Mat Cauthon, every nerd's favorite scoundrel since Han Solo shot first.<br />
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I also had severe acne and no girlfriend and by this time was writing my own massive Jordan imitation. You know.<br />
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But folks, this boy joined a punk band, found a social life, and kind of grew up, at least in reading taste. After my Mormon mission, I was pleasantly surprised that Book 9 went somewhere. Then Book 10 undid all that goodwill by having exactly one, one plot twist, and ignoring Rand, our main man, in the same way book 8 ignored Mat. When 11 came out, I more or less enjoyed the book, but it was clear that between sickness and attempts to manage his unwieldy subplots, Jordan's writing had devolved. I could see the cracks. Also, why did it take until book 11 to bring Rand's dad back into the story?<br />
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He died and the series went to Brandon Sanderson. I loved Sanderson's debut novel <i>Elantris</i>. I found his recent offering <i>The Way of Kings </i>to be too much of a slog and never finished it. Plus, having lived in Utah, all his characters sound Mormon to me. All shades of Mormon, true. Ex, liberal, mystic, conservative, but they all sound Mormon. Which will be interesting in the Wheel of Time, where all the characters sound like old parishioners in said Presbyterian church.<br />
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But. Not there yet. I am determined to reread the entire series one last time before the ending. Closure won't be the same without it. Even if it's a bit of a chore.<br />
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I am pleasantly surprised that parts of his writing hold up. His characters act ridiculous, true, snippy and backbiting, and I can't buy any of the plot twists involving Aes Sedai. No one that incompetent could last in politics. But he's really good at some things.<br />
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In particular, I really like the Aiel this time around. In younger days, I never knew why Jordan spent so much time with them. They were the veiled desert culture off to the east. A standby for fantasy. They had different humor and different customs and oh man they figure so largely into the story.<br />
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Now, speaking as a white guy who works on an Indian reservation, I'm pleasantly surprised by all the consideration Jordan puts into the Aiel. They're a little Bedouin, a little Plains Tribes, a little other thing, but they're not cribbed from one culture. They're defiantly tribal, and of course super-warriors, but at the same time their way of life is just as viable as "civilized" folk.<br />
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Their culture is full of foibles and nobility yet degraded by those of Jordan's Western culture. They even have to suffer cultural appropriation from young noble men and women who are looking for meaning to their empty lives, a rather true-to-life twist.<br />
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So. There are some things worth studying in the horrible middle of the Wheel of Time series. More as I go along, I hope. I owe this to my thirteen-year-old self, who does not yet understand the sacrifices of adulthood, like reading the crappy parts of a fantasy series for one's thirteen-year-old self's sake. Or going to work, which I should probably do now.Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-30973154370657350322012-12-17T10:27:00.002-08:002012-12-17T10:27:49.078-08:00Fixing A Hobbit-HoleI saw the Hobbit! And absolutely nothing else happened this weekend. Certainly nothing that sickens me to think about and could have been easily prevented by better legislation and...<br />
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Point.<br />
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Writer-brain is fascinated by "broken" movies. My friends have heard me go on and on about Ridley Scott's <i>Kingdom of Heaven. </i>That movie had a fantastic premise, and some amazing acting, and incredible sets, locations and actors, but it thuds around a lot of the time, saved only by a few transcendent bits.<br />
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It's a hard movie to diagnose, other than some obvious flaws. Scott should have cast someone other than Orlando Bloom who could carry more gravitas, and given the villain more depth and less scenery-chewing. It would still be an impossibly complex and hard-to-tell story.<br />
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Other movies are easier to diagnose. Although I'm tempted to say <i>The Phantom Menace </i>was impossibly broken, the structure actually holds up with one simple rewrite. Have Darth Maul kill off Qui-Gon early on, and make it Obi-Wan's story, about an apprentice trying to protect a princess and a "chosen one" on a dangerous desert world. Ramp up emotional stakes by having Anakin ripped away from his mother. Crucify me for saying this, but even Jar Jar could have been saved. We never got any sympathy for him, nor any admiration, throughout the entire film. Even at the end, he turned and ran. Have him do something heroic and he starts to redeem himself.<br />
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This is a good thing for writer-brain. I still can't rewrite my own stuff to save my life, but at least I can use the intellectual exercise.<br />
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So <i>The Hobbit </i>interests me. It was as padded-out and wandering as I thought it would be, and call that a self-fulfilling prophesy, but I actually did enjoy a lot of it. It just needed a good cut.<br />
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The film would have been more satisfying in the original two-part format, ending at "Barrels Out of Bond" when Bilbo's really proven his heroism. But this three-movie format could even work... at two hours. If Jackson had chopped thirty-five minutes, he'd have a movie the length of <i>Star Wars! </i>Jeez, man.<br />
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Somewhere on the Internet I saw a prediction for the film that would have been a huge improvement; replace or augment the Radagast sequence with the Barrow-Wight sequence from <i>The Fellowship of the Ring. </i>Post-encounter-with-trolls, the dwarves and Bilbo wander into a land of nasty fog and open crypts. Gandalf is distracted by the suspicious open crypt of the Witch-King himself. The dwarves make for the treasure in the tombs (which actually makes more sense than when the hobbits in <i>FotR </i>wake up wearing the jewels) and Bilbo has to hack a Barrow-Wight's arm as Frodo does. This would introduce the idea of the Witch-King's rebirth. We could still get a chopped-down sequence of Radagast and the spiders.<br />
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Mostly I kept seeing stuff that could be cut. Everything in Bilbo's hobbit-hole was great, but it needed to be chopped down! Dwarves arrive, make a mess. Thorin arrives. Bilbo reads the contract. Bilbo faints and has his talk with Gandalf. The dwarves sing. The intros: cut old Bilbo and Frodo, or give them a brief montage, and reveal the Arkenstone later.<br />
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This is an entirely different subject, but I could have lost the PG-13 violence. There's nothing in the book or the appendices that would make <i>The Hobbit </i>more than PG, although the Barrow-Wight sequence could have worked on a PG-13 level.<br />
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On the subject of long and Tolkien, though...<br />
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If you've got forty-five minutes to spare, which Peter Jackson obviously did, take a look at my Tokienesque pastiche <i>Blade and Branch and Stone. </i>As you can tell from my self-recrimination, I can see its flaws, but it was an attempt by me to complicate and twist some of Tolkien's themes of environmentalism and colonialism: http://www.heroicfantasyquarterly.com/?p=1116Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-10704033857086069582012-12-12T14:01:00.005-08:002012-12-12T14:01:47.806-08:00MY HOBBITS!Oh my Cthulhu, what a quarter. I am never teaching for two schools at once again... until January. All right, then.<br />
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So this quarter I kept my gig at the online school while taking on some adjunct work at Northwest Indian College. This was tough but really rewarding, as it gave me the chance to dive further into the relations of the US and Natives in history, law and present culture, a topic I've always been interested in but never had the motivation to really study. However, it turned out to be way more work than I anticipated for just adjunct.<br />
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The blessing was that I could work at the online school anywhere. Even their approved "use-me-even though-I'm deadly-slow" computer is a laptop. So in some ways I had less distractions in the office at the tribal college. There, the only other things I think about are my other classes. At home, I was sharing a room with a drum set and had kids pounding down my door...<br />
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Didn't get much writing done. My band got an album out, and a great, poetic, somewhat grammatically incorrect review in the local music scene rag. <span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Among other memorable phrases, we are "churning guitar soup," "sibilant gothic-glam vocal" and "slinky romantic modality."</span></span><br />
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But you don't care about that.<br />
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What do you care about?<br />
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Hobbits.<br />
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There are some bigger Tolkien geeks than me. Christopher Lee spoke Elvish before he ever imagined playing Saruman. Stephen Colbert can sing Tom Bombadil's ditties off the top of his head.<br />
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But I'm close. I can tell you off the top of my had, for instance, that Thorin was named after a previous Thorin, the first dwarf king of Erebor, and he got his honorific "Oakenshield" by using a wooden log as a yes, shield. I can tell you Bombadil's name in Elvish (Iarwain).<br />
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I can tell you that Smaug wasn't a patch on the fearsome dragon Angalacon the Black.<br />
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(Okay, I caved and googled and I got that one wrong--I initially wrote Angorbad the Cruel).<br />
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I first read <i>The Hobbit</i> when I was six, on summer vacation between first and second grade. I got through it mostly relying on my memory of the TV adaptation, which I will still defend to any detractor. Arthur Rackham-esque animation! Catlike, cranky Smaug! Glenn Yarbrough! Actually, scratch the last one.<br />
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I went on to read the LotR trilogy in second and eighth grade, although I skipped most scenes that didn't have Frodo in them. And of course I fangasmed over Peter Jackson's trilogy. There were bits I didn't like--Metal Galadriel, for instance, or that insipid addition where Sam and Frodo have a spat over missing <i>lembas</i> bread.<br />
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But oh man, I have never felt anything quite like what I felt during Pippin's song while Faramir went to his death to please his father. I still can't hear "All you have to decide..." without tearing up.<br />
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I've been pumped for <i>The Hobbit. </i>Until I heard it<i> </i>would be split into a trilogy.<br />
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It's a short book! And it's also a very neat arc. Bilbo starts out a shut-in homebody, progresses to being an active adventurer who actually saves the dwarves' lives, and eventually his burgling is a kind of protest activism for peace between quarreling races.<br />
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Not the stuff of THREE movies!<br />
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Reviews agree with me. I am sadly vindicated. I didn't wanna be vindicated. Rotten Tomatoes has the film at 73% and plunging.<br />
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The original two-film treatment almost had me won over. Yes, two films is long for a 300-page book, but if they were going to also film the scenes at Dol Guldur and with the White Council, it could work. Especially since the first movie was set to end at "Barrels Out of Bond." At that point, Bilbo has progressed to dashing hero status, but has not yet encountered the horror of Smaug's lair or the moral test of the Arkenstone and Thorin's wrath. End the first movie with Gandalf in the dungeons of Dol Guldur and Bilbo cruising along on his barrel.<br />
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But three films? How much extra stuff would go in there? Okay, PJ, if you have to make it three films, then at least make them short films. No? <i>An Unexpected Journey </i>has a running time of three hours! At least make it easier for me to find a babysitter on the day I go wait in line to see your movie.<br />
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I know people liked <i>King Kong, </i>but man, I could already foresee the problems with <i>The Hobbit </i>in that one. Jackson expanded the original 90-minute film into three massive hours. It was still a movie about a freaking huge monkey. You could knock forty minutes off <i>King Kong </i>and no one would have complained.<br />
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Guillermo Del Toro's departure was really the footstep of doom for <i>The Hobbit.</i> He was too involved in other work to do three movies, and he makes shorter, neater movies than PJ. In my head, I'll be watching Del Toro's film this Friday.<br />
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It's obvious now that the three movie studios involved were pushing for three movies from the beginning. Three guaranteed moneymakers, keeping these studios afloat for another three years so they could take risks on other movies.<br />
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In fact, when you put it that way, perhaps <i>The Hobbit's </i>collective profits will bring us better movies overall. There will be an edited version floating around the Internet eventually anyway, similar to the Purist Cut of the Two Towers.<br />
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We true Tolkien geeks, though, know that you can have the cake and second breakfast too. Tolkien wrote plenty of other material that could easily fill an epic trilogy. Do you want three more Middle-Earth movies from PJ, studios? Why not mine the massive history of Middle-Earth, published by Tolkien's son, the weight of which would smash a puppy flat? Movie 1: Beren and Luthien. Movie 2: The Downfall of Numenór. Movie 3: Now we get to Bilbo.<br />
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The Beren/Luthien story could be retold by a narrating Arwen. Numenór by an elder Aragorn.<br />
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Which is probably what will happen. Middle-Earth will become a neverending franchise the way Star Wars is set to. Sadly, like Star Wars, I'm guessing it will learn from the mistakes of the prequels.<br />
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Maybe not. Maybe I'll love every languorous second of <i>The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey </i>when I see it this Friday. Maybe I will rue the day I complained on the Internet.<br />
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Probably not.<br />
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<br />Spencer Ellsworthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16684500448697612087noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7166080531707292516.post-38062832396391912262012-09-11T18:25:00.002-07:002012-09-11T18:25:29.956-07:00Dial 911<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Eleven years ago, I was a missionary, tracting out the town of Winston-Salem, NC. It was hot, we were tired, we'd had little luck in the area, and suddenly people came to the door and said, "Don't you know what's going on?"</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Throughout the day, we watched way more TV than we ever had as missionaries, and I saw the planes hit the towers over and over. The bigness of it all didn't register.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">I suppo</span><br />
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se there were some people who saw Pearl Harbor as just a thing that happened on the way to other things. There was war and trouble in the world, and it got worse. Business as usual. That was me.<br /><br />I wish I'd been more mindful. Not until the Bush administration decided to lump Iraq in with Afghanistan did the whole business appear like a serious global crisis. It had been hijacked by an old desire to deal with Saddam, oilmongering and just plain overreaching.<br /><br />By that point I was ensconced in school, and then the minute I finished I had a pregnant wife, and there was grad school to think of, and all I could think was that the whole business stank. The tragedy stank, but so did the unnecessary war piled on top of the other one, and it continued to stink while the deaths mounted.<br /><br />If I could, I would go back and ask myself what my responsibility to my nation was. It could have been something as simple as more volunteer work, or perhaps something as big as military service. It could have been more active protesting of the war. It could have been more support for the troops. Instead, I lived my life with little thought of it all. I tried to be a good person, have some fun, and raise my family.<br /><br />Now I see in myself the same flaw I cursed in the Bush administration. The tragedy changed the world, but it didn't change me.<br /><br />I don't want to post this because, other than some increased political activism, I still haven't changed much. I want to. I hope you do too. Whether it's volunteer work, maybe with Iraq and Afghanistan Veterans of America or the Red Cross, or it's activism to bring the troops home and stop the endless war, or your own military service, we can choose to honor the tragedy in the twenty-teens in a way we didn't in the oughties.</div>
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